niyuzuku

He is my friend from junior high school. We always in the same class until we graduated from high school. I feel something ingruited in the first time I met him, and I cant forgot how foolish when I call him shortie when he was sitting and I was stand up. I felt so wrong when he stand up and I said sorry to him.

I dont remember when we started become closer. The thing I remember the most is his table is in front of me on the 3rd class of junior high. We often studied together in the class when there was no teacher and the others was playing in the class. He move his chair and sit to face me, he really have strong desire to study, but sometimes he lost when the teacher teach us, so he often ask me back after class. All of my classmates often tease us as couple, but we always give it off. We was happy as we were.

When he know we are on same class again in 1st year of senior high, he settled his seat in front of me again. I felt so happy and I start to think him as someone special. My girl friends told me that I must tell him that I like him. After some months I cant think straight and I write him a love letter and place it in his backpack. The next day, without saying anything he change his seat with the other guy. He leave me. My heart were really broken. I felt so wrong with that letter. I must not write it from the first place. Now I lost my best friend. But he really a good guy, after he move from his seat, he still talk to me as friend and didnt hate me. He really just moved and gave some distance between us, so I know that we only friend, no more.

On the second year of high school, we got same class again, but I know after the love letter, he will never sit in front of me again. Lucky me, one of our junior ask us to join an afterschool course at the downtown. He ask me if I want to join in, he told me that my best friend also want to join in. Honestly I dont care about my best friend anymore, I just want to join the course, so I joined the course. On the first month, my dad or big bro always sent me and pick me up to and from the course. I really active at the course, and I got my best friend again. Sometimes he pick me or sent me back home from course. Our friendship is better on that year, as I also clear my mind that he is my best friend.

After we started the third year of senior high, we are still best friend. We were searching scholarship together to go to university.We often back home late because of it. We also went to next city close to ours to take the test together with our another friends. Our friendship deepen because of it, we really fulll of dreams in those times. But he didn't have a luck to go to university, he was not accepted in any university, while I was accepted in an univerisity at the next city.

In the university I was focusing my self in study and searching many experience to reach my dreams. I really forgot about him, but sometimes we still contact each other with our another classmates. Sometime when I back to my city we also meet up with the others, we dont want to lose contact with our schoolmates. In my 2nd year in university my mom want to match me with someone from my city. I really dont care about my love line at all in those time, so I accept what my mom said. I just let it flow as I also still burning to reach my dreams.

I got my job dream before I graduate from university, and I'm happy with it. After I graduate, I ask my mom about the one she want to match with me, but shockingly, the man already have another woman and want to married soon. So, I dont have anyone to love those time. Because I still keep contact with my friends in those times, I can meet up with them to clear my mind and live happily.

One time, my company sent me to another city far from my city. I must move there for some months, so I cant met my family and friends at all on those time. After some months I felt feed up there, my assigment was pile up and I felt so loneny. I want to resign from my company. I dont know why, I called him and I told him about how feed up I am. I was crying on the phone. Then he said many good things that make my heart better. I felt how great he is. I know he is one of my best friends after all. But in that phone call I made a great mistake. I told him that I like him, I need him. He cant answer me clearly. How can he answer that stupid question again after some years he clearly reject me. But he really a great guy after all. He told me that he think me as one of his best friend, no more than it. He also promise me that he still will be my best friend. The way he explain it to me really careful trying to not break my heart. He can change this sad topic to another topic smoothly, at the end of call we were laughing because of something else. After the call I felt my heart was very light and warm. I felt so sad but also happy.

When I back to my city, I really scared to met him. But he asked me to go to a cafe with him, only me and him, and I accepted it. When I met him, I gave him some gift from another city, I felt some awkward moment at first, but then he can start the topic and talking a long way without any uneasy feeling. Then he said sorry about 'those' thing that he can't fulfill to me. I said it's okay, as we still can be friend like this. I also said sorry that I'm the one who always made 'those' moment happened. He said okay, then we also talked about our school year when I did 'those' thing for the first time. He remember it so well, It made me really shy, how can he still remember it. Then we were talking about any other school memories that made us laugh again and made anything clear. He sent me back home with smile, and I also made my mind clear that we just friend.

After a year, this time he was the one who go to another city for a month and half for his dream job. I went to train station to sent him away and gave him a gift to make him more spirited to reach his dream. He said so happy that I came and give him a gift. When he back to our city, he ask me to eating out again just two of us. He gave me a small bag as gift. I was so happy, he remember me. He told me about his experience there, he looked so happy. we were talking until the closed time of the cafe.

A month ago I finally can reach my biggest dream to go to Japan. Before I leave, He ask me to buy something he want, when I'm in Japan, I easily just okay him. But fool me, I forgot to buy him his request. I just really enjoy my trip in Japan fully for myself. When I back I just remember that I forgot to buy the thing he want. I just bought him some other small gifts.

He ask me to eat again after I back to my city. I gave him the gift I bought for him, but sorry to forget his request. He said okay and he still smile. He want to listen my story about japan and slice of arashi. He really enthusiastic about my story. He told me, that he can know many things that he dont know before because of me. We talking happily until we back and he sent me home.

Now we still friend and I am happy with it.